Mary Rowan September 30, 2017

This piece is to show that after a suicide attempt, finding a purpose is possible. There is always a light at the end of darkness if we choose to look for it. At times it is a constant struggle to keep going. Do not ever give up. Always find a way to survive. If you need to seek counseling, please ask for help. There is no shame in asking for help when the world becomes too overwhelming. It is not a sign of weakness to seek help and guidance.

Oh Iris

Dedicated to My Angel

“And I give up forever to touch you.”  Inspire, Encourage, heal, like the dolphins in the ocean at sunset.

“Cause I know that you feel me somehow.” Connected in mind, soul, and incarnations. Like Identical twins.

“You’re the closest to heaven I’ll ever be.” Pulled from the depths of hell into the light. Chance for new life.

“And I don’t want to go home right now.” Dark, demonized, and fighting within.

“And all I can taste is this moment.” Embracing arms that engulf my soul and heals.

“And all I can breathe is your life.” Who taught me to Breathe heal, learn and to change.

“Cause sooner or later it’s over.” The Pain, suffering, doubts and anger.

“I just don’t want to miss you tonight.”  Being comfortably held, relaxed and at peace.

“And I don’t want the world to see me.” Broken, weak, suicidal and unloved.

“Cause I don’t think they would understand.” The Angel who chose to save me who is connected to my soul who saw the good in me.

“When everything is made to be broken.” Held so tight the pieces formed a better me.

“I just want you to know who I am.” Strong, independent, kind, caring, loving. Giving intelligent, empowering thankful and alive.

“And you can’t fight the tears that ain’t coming.”  Give a damn got busted.

“Or the moment of truth in your lies.” Lies, Lies, Lies who cares anymore.

“When everything feels like the movies.” Lose touch, lose faith. Lose compassion. Lose everything that matters.

“Yeah you bleed to know your alive.” Hesitation cuts.

To be able to come back from the destruction and to be a productive human once again. I have to thank my loved ones and my Angel who made sure I took the road to a better me an improved upon person. That sees the world with rose colored glasses and knows someday love will prevail in this crazy ass society. The plan to destroy me worked because I cared for others too much.

 

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